Am I doing this again?! What the fuck? Another “Valentine’s Day Sucks” T-pisode….really? This is the one where all you people out there want me to be angry T and go off on love…couples…romance…Hallmark and all that shit right? Do something crazy and piss people off! Set shit on fire T style!!! No. I’m not doing it. Well not really. Let’s do a flashback real quick shall we? In 2010 I stated my case and let the world know why I hated Valentine’s Day. Legit reasons. In 2011 I let the world know my thoughts on “love” & “asshole” couples on Valentine’s Day. Yeah I was angry. Sue me. In 2012 I went to Cali and took myself out the Boston dating game handing all the ladies over to my lesser competition on Valentine’s Day. I needed a break and Cali was very good to me. Over the last 3 “Valentine’s Day Sucks” T-pisodes you can clearly see the differences taking place in my life over the years. I am still true to my beliefs and everything I said but things have changed. I have changed. Now here we are in 2013 with a different T. And where does T go from here on Valentine’s Day? That’s the million dollar question these days.
I honestly didn’t want to write about Valentine’s Day this year. Whether I still believed if it was good or bad. Whether I was seeing a special lady or not during the holiday. Whether I was going to do this Hallmark holiday like I do every regular date with a good girl I really liked. Special, romantic, fun & sweet. Whether or not I was capable of being one half of one of those cheesy couples I always bash. I just wanted to pass over it and give you the next T-pisode I had lined up. But I just couldn’t do it. I had to take it there. It’s what I do right? So I’ll take it there. Here it is. I haven’t been the same since I got back to dating. Since this Summer. Since Paris. Since the “Dating Sabbatical.” I got back to dating, to going out and I couldn’t go back to my old ways because I’m not that guy anymore. So I tried to date different. And so far I have shit to show for it. That’s my fault. My heart isn’t in it and I’m not finding what I thought I was looking for. So there was no way in hell I was going to have a good woman who wanted me to take her out on Valentine’s Day and no way I was doing the holiday with a casual chick. I’ve been on a few “solid” dates here and there and there were no sparks on my end. A hook up here and there and but I didn’t like how I felt about myself the next day. I even tried going out to some of my old spots here and there and while it was great seeing some old faces still at the same lounges & clubs, I mostly saw young slutty girls & douchebags that I didn’t want to be around again. Besides one woman who I actually really like but can’t figure out if it’s worth taking to that next level or not beyond my wiseass flirting & hanging out, I am single. Like VERY single. Like holy shit this is the most single I have been in years single! Everything else is great. I’m actually crushing it in every other aspect of my life except for that. So I can’t really complain and Valentine’s Day will just have to continue to suck for at least one more year on T-blawg people. Because that’s the way the cheesy Hallmark cards fell in my life this year on that day. Bad pun intended.
Valentine’s Day has become the bane of T-blawg I think. The anti-Bro Code perhaps? Festivus’ evil red-headed step cousin? I have allowed it to become the one thing I don’t like writing about. That I don’t like sharing with the entire world. It is the thorn in the side of this beautiful rose called T-blawg! But I’ll keep sharing my thoughts on Valentine’s Day because life isn’t all rosé champagne and feeding chocolate covered strawberries to a hot chick in a hotel suite. You like that ladies? Yeah you’re missing that right now without T ain’t ya? Sometimes life is a struggle. I think I know that more than most people. But I also know that there hasn’t been a challenge in my life yet that I haven’t overcome. Valentine’s Day and all it’s suckiness is a challenge for me and a challenge for all things that make T-blawg so fucking awesome. Well I don’t like to lose. I’m a fighter, I think you all know that by now. So come Valentine’s Day 2014, there will be NO “Valentine’s Day Sucks 5” T-pisode. I swear on Cupid’s dead midget body. I’m going to bury that little fucker and shower his casket with roses.
“If she’s amazing, she won’t be easy.
If she’s easy, she won’t be amazing.
If she’s worth it, you won’t give up.
If you give up, you’re not worthy….
Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you;
you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.”–Bob Marley
Until next time. Always take it there.